“Sometimes one is guided by what they say of themselves, and very frequently by what other people say of them, without giving oneself time to deliberate and judge.” – Sense and Sensibility, Jane Austen
“I am a sad person.” – Me
Every successful person I have ever read about or followed on social media has said something along the lines of the following…”Do what scares you.” Well, what if I am afraid of everything? Does that mean I could do literally anything and grow? Let’s say the answer is yes.
My experiences in life have been varied, just like everyone. In my most productive, over-achieving, and vibrant time, I held three steady jobs and a plethora of gig-based side hustles. That was about 7 years ago. Today, I am quickly approaching the age all women shrivel up and die inside…or so others would have us believe. Do with that what you will. My point is this: I feel lost.
In those pandemic years, my passions disappeared and I stopped striving to put myself out of my comfort zone. Fear and I became constant companions. For the better part of a decade, I receded into myself and dissipated into someone I do not always recognize. Self-confidence and self-awareness floated away from me without my putting up any of a fight. I ask myself what happened almost daily.
Bottom line is, I want to get that girl back. The smiler, laugher, dancer, and lover of beauty and life I know I am. This blog is about finding her…wherever she’s hiding.
